I wrote this nine years ago today, but it describes events that happened fourteen years ago. You’ll figure it out…
This is my best-beloved and me yesterday:
If you wonder what a gorgeous woman like that is doing with a schlub like me, I commend you to the power of poetry.
Someone to thrive with.
So… She says it’s time she goes
But wanted to be sure I know
She hopes we can be friendsI think… “Yeah, I guess we can,” say I
But didn’t think to ask her why
She blocked her eyes and drew the curtains
With knots I’ve got yet to untie…What if I were Romeo in black jeans?
What if I was Heathcliff, it’s no myth?
Maybe she’s just looking for
Someone to dance with…
The song is ‘No Myth’ by Michael Penn, a very folky kind of Rock ‘n’ Roll. There’s this one and ‘Thunder Road’ by Bruce Springsteen: “You can hide ‘neath your covers and study your pain, make crosses from your lovers, throw roses in the rain.” We never had an ‘our song’ because we always had two.
I found her on the internet, like every good thing. It was just after Christmas in 1997. She was a widow awash in sadness, and her sister pestered her into posting this completely impersonal personal ad:
Women Seeking Men, Phoenix, Arizona
Intellect, Hubris Appreciated
Relationship: Talk/E-mail
Religion: Gnostic, Hermetic
Other: Doesn’t Smoke, Drinks, Doesn’t Have/Want Children
Description: I haven’t started dating since my husband
died… and I’m not ready to start yet. I do, however,
enjoy stimulating discussions, and am interested in
expanding my network of gentlemen friends without
having to go out and meet anyone. You may fantasize…
I am lovely… but do not be crude or too graphic. It
seems that the chatrooms I’ve scanned are populated
with people looking for anonymous opportunity to be ill
mannered. Please do be eclectic, though. There is so
much fascinating knowledge to be shared and adventures
to be enjoyed, that the mind should not be limited by
crassness or trite vocabularies. If you don’t
understand, please go to the next on the list.
I was in the same sort of spot. I had been through a completely vicious divorce, very costly financially and emotionally, and I had no need or Read more